Today was my second day of tutoring, I didn’t feel as nauseous and I did on my first day, actually today I was very excited. I felt a little more prepared what was in store for me because I had the tutees email me their papers before hand. One tutee actually emailed me several drafts.
My three o’clock appointment arrived and since I already saw his paper I thought this session was going to be a very good one. This too turned out to be a disaster, I learned from this session that although it would be more beneficial to myself and the tutees if I received their papers before hand I probably should not make any writings on them. I now understand why Sarah did not show the tutee any markup copy but read the paper before hand got a good idea of what they were talking about and their weak spots but only had the unmarked up version with her. I also realized that having a markup version and just talking about what I saw in addition to their request could go against what the writing center stands for, FACILTATIVE TUTORING NOT DIRECTIVE TUTORING. So that was the first mistake. After he saw my markup version of his paper, he produced another draft that he had just finished and requested that I go over that version instead. I noticed in this version he did catch most of what I had noticed and his argument was much clearer in the presented draft. I also noticed something that one of my fellow writing apprentices talked about in class, I can not remember her name but she talked about gendered tutoring. I wished I had gone over her reading handout again before having this session because there was most certainly tension in the room and it was not coming from me. We went over our session by five minutes and I was upset that I didn’t pace myself properly, I must remember to do that with each session especially with tutees who have 10 pages or more. After the session was over I went over to get my next appointment and noticed him talking to a friend and did not seem to pleased or relieved just more frustrated. I wish we did follow up surveys to see if I was helpful to him. He did not have specific concerned or didn’t interpret me when I was speaking and did asked him a lot of questions on his paper when I found something confusing. I think he took offense to this, he did look taken aback when asked him questions about his paper. I was trying to be facilitative but it doesn’t look like I did a great job at this.
